I'm having a problem with this case, we called it "oh-so-long-distance-relationship".
I find it hard to believe that I'm in that kind of situation, but hey I'm doing it anyway.
what do you feel when you consider yourself to be far far away from home?
from beloved mom and little bro?
or, what do you feel when you consider yourself to be separated by kilometers away?
so, ya, that's what I'm doing right now.
and what do you feel when you consider yourself to be far from your loved one, well, I mean *cough* boyfie *cough* well what do you feel?
while everyone told you that it's not a problem, that you just separated by 2 or 3-hours-away from yours?
But that's not me. That's still be a problem.
That's a problem, when your connection suddenly get sucks and all you can do is rely to quota. That was so mean.
They said, we all have those social media like videocall, snapchat, line, or something but we all SHOULD, oh at least understand that nothing could beat that face-to-face communication, like, really.
Oh that's the little case.
Another case is, when you finally meet them, your beloved, and you should leave em to doing your life like you always did, well for me, that feels so......sad.
well if you know me, I could always pretend that I didn't cry (while we all know that I did cry) then erase my tears in silence.
or having those worry things like,
How if I fail?
How if I didn't get them all the happy feelings?
What should I do now without them?
When will I meet them?
Could I hug him right now because I feel like I had to do this?
How if he doesn't like it?
Could I hug my mom because it feels like i'm about to cry right now?
Oh what happens with his life these days?
Does life hits them hard?
Why should I leave?
Could I stay here with them (and him) and never comeback to my usual life?
I know, right?
I know that i'm so silly, yet so spoiled because do I look like I couldn't be this far?
Yes, you don't say and don't tell me twice because I know that.
But all I have to do is just wait and wait and wait and wait and........*sigh*
all I have to do is just to play with time, gives a chance to makes me happy when it comes to meet with all the love of my life.
Alright, I know.
I don't know that oh-so-called-long-distance-relationship could be this hard.
But I always know that it's worth to wait and worth to be fighting for, B.